Steampunk accessories.

I made a pair of goggles and A monocle unit today.  I'm pretty proud. It's my first attempt at any kind of gear like this.  I want to make a couple of adjustments to the goggles so they look a little more like antiqued metal around the rims.  but other than that I'm fairly happy with the outcome.  More updates of course in the near future.  I have a little bit of sewing to do on the vest to fix the leather strips at the bottom.  Then I have to figure out what I want to trim all the edges with. hmmm.

Working it up

So I've started this evil project.  It started with wanting to do a photo shoot all steampunk.. Then I realize, well, there isnt very much in the way of available costuming.  So In a moment of stupor I decided I would make things.  Half way through this goddamned vest I remembered that I hated to sew.
Anyway.
I want to put more intricate fun patterns with the gold/bronze ink.  I want to reinforce the leather and brass strips at the bottom and I want to put trim around all the edges as they are still just unfinished.  But its a start.  My fingers hate me and I'm getting angry with it. But Imma show it who is boss.

Take that fucker.

Vanity.

Betty Fuckin Crocker

So.  The dark Ones are Triple Chunk chocolate Muffins with frosting.  Yes.. Those are some Triple Chunks with a fucking cookie tower on the top. Frosting Mortar.  the ones on the end are Banana Nut with Chocolate dipped Nana Chips on them.  With a small Dollop of Butter cream frosting on it.  

The cookies are Reeses cup cookies, but they literally were the kind you dump out of a fridge pack and bake, so I'm not so proud of dems. 

Once again, I must be doing something wrong, because despite my attempts ate havin my photos properly edited, by the time I upload them here blogspot flips em all willynilly. 

Today I was betty fuckin Crocker.

I cooked like a mufucka today.  shit ton of cupcakes.  Caramel batter. Butter cream frosting.  Chocolate decor.

and second picha is my tasty soup.  Sausage, potatoes, Kale and a crap ton O tasty seasoning.

Georgia, Laundry, and the onion skin girl.

So there is something in Georgia.  I haven't quite figured it out yet.  Potential and madness and Chaos and love.. But it's roiling around in that nebulous concept of future.   There are spiderwebs and pathways that I can't quite seem to clear at the moment.  I have hope, but that hope is also tempered with the realization of cold factual reality.  Something that I previously chose to ignore earlier in life.

I feel bogged down a little bit. No time for myself. No time to breathe.  I suppose that's how it goes.  I told someone the other day "You just don't have enough time to have a mental breakdown. That might cut in on your too few precious hours of sleep, so you just put it off until tomorrow. "  I think that pretty much sums it up.

I am as fat as I have ever been.  I start to kick up my heels and dig into my chubbins, but then I loose steam after a week and fall back down. A few weeks later I  puff right up and chugga chugga on the Lose some fat train, but fall down again.  I think this week will be another steamy week of trying to not be supa fat.

Tonight Is going to be for me.  I'm finally going to post that picture of my happy onion skin stuffs, and I'm going to work on some more sketches right now.  I still have to finish my painting I started. I'm not even closed to finished, but I literally haven't had the time to engage in oils.

I want to be positive. Geared up and moving forward.  Coal in my potbellied stove. I WILL be persistent.  Some one send me inspiration, or an epiphany please.

I need the 20th to be here now. 

Onion skin

I've fallen in love again.  Reignited I suppose, my love for onion skin paper.  More than just for tracing you comic nerds.  The texture and non-porous nature of the stuff makes for some beautiful and fun effects and art.
I will post something here very soon.

I miss you wittle blog.

Beardies are getting bigger, almost time for this crop of lil lizards to get the hell out and find some new homes. YAY.

We will also talk about Georgia at a different time.  yes.  But it's there.

Goodbye dear bloggie... I will meet with you again soon. 

Unable to contain the begining

just the beginning of this.  Blocking in the colors in oils.  She doesnt look anything like she's going to.

here she is. 

Lost the Dream.

I've broken the promise I made to myself to post here a few times a week.
My catharsis if you will.  My tiny catharsis. *laughs*

Life has been very very strange for me lately.  Some of it disassociation based, Some of it utter confusion.
Like most things, I will remain fairly esoteric about the subject matter.  The nouns and adverbs of the situation don't matter. Mostly just the predicate.

I don't know when I lost my know how.
I thought having been with Ronn was a good thing for me when we were together, however it's not until after the fact when you realize that it messed you up more than was really expected.

So here it is now, I'm alone.  I thought I was strong, but I finally turn to look and my confidence is smashed. Utterly smashed.  A broken mirror around me.  I have the act down superbly.  Everyone thinks/knows That I'm a self confident bitch.  Upright in my proverbial posture. sturdy in herself.  They don't see the thousand sets of half glazed eyes staring back at me from the floor.

Now I need myself. And I'm scattered.  Breathe deep woman.  Call it all to you. The world is mostly held together with spit, luck and duct tape anyhow.

I wanna walk chin up, and mean it.



I've started a painting.  Oils again.  I'll start posting it's progression here shortly.  

Some of them even bite.

Some of these little zoom buggies have the high spirits to open their little mouths and launch at you! SO CUTE.

And so it begins!

 So far there are 8. 19 more to go

creating pretties for fun.

big stick.
Bullet casings.
Super Glue
Silicon goo of doom.
extra chains and charms.
decorative tacks and copper banding.

Makes fancy fancy walking stick.

Lillay

Fun with digital photographies.

fun

ahahhahahahahahahahahhaahYES

All that glitters...is a hot bitch tossin Yo Dog around.

No. Seriously. She throws puppies.
But on the Upside, I took some fantastic photos of Ms. Seabelle.
She's gorgeous.
Why the fuck does blogspot turn my pictures in any willynillyfuckingway they want?
Im too lazy to reload them again, so you'll have to deal.