About Me

Thursday, March 14, 2013



Phillip greeted Frank as if they were old friends. They were after all, getting ready to be very well acquainted   Frank looked shocked to see him. Frightened even.  His eyes fluttered with the sheer ecstasy of seeing that fear.  Before he lost his advantage he brought the syringe that he'd been concealing up and pushed Franky Boy through the doors.  A quick jab and the man was down.
Goddamn was this man heavy. Phillip was sweating getting him down a long corridor and into Franks shitty one room studio apartment. He hefted the man through one more doorway and then left him in a pile on the floor. Wiping the sweat off of his brow he stood over the man and gave him a hard rib cracking punt to the chest.  "Oh Lover boy. It's going to be a beautiful night."  He lifted his gaze double checking all of the things he'd set up earlier.  "Early to bed, and early to rise, makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise." His words were crisp. Calm. Even if he was talking to a doped up unconscious man.
He straightened the plastic tarp on the floor and the wheelchair in the center, Tie wraps waiting in an organized line nearby. He took a deep breath and rolled Frank over before awkwardly slinking him into the chair and securing him into place.  He even doubled up on his wrists and ankles, God knows how strong this Ox might be when he was awake. He snaked his way around the apartment pulling an array of beautiful shiny things from their homes. A knife from the kitchen. A long rasp from a tool box in the corner. A wire brush from the closet near the bathroom. A heavy wrench from under the sink.
The implements were arranged on a card table. Even in the dim light of the apartment you could make out their identifiable shapes.  Phillip walked by the table over and over again. Each passing he delicately ran his index fingers over the curves and lines of each piece, as if memorizing their contours. A slow euphoric smile spread over his face. Pupils expanded, eyes nearly all black, in sudden shock contrast to his pale blond hair.   He made another circle around the table then ended up next to Frank. He pushed his glasses up on his face and leaned over the big dark man.
"Wakey wakey big Franky" During his last pass to the table, he picked up the kitchen knife, which he now plunged into Frank's shoulder. It slipped in. No resistance. Phillip quivered with excitement. "I never dreamed" he said softly, but the sound was drowned out by Frank's muffled screams against his gag. He twisted the handle just a touch and a new series of screams erupted against the restraint in Frank's mouth. "Don't worry love." He patted the top of Frank's head, but left the knife plunged in the mans shoulder "We'll call your girlfriend, but we're going to have a little fun first." and with that, He reached over and plucked the wire brush from the table.


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Steph blinked in the half light of her darkened bedroom. She lay there a moment slightly disoriented, trying to put her finger on what it was that woke her. She tilted her head, eyes still closed, pale face lost in a sea of black waves over her pillow as she listened intently. City sounds. Far off traffic. Air brakes gushing a few blocks over as a late night bus picked up and dropped off on Main street. She nearly faded back out, when a soft keening sound made her open her eyes and sit straight up in the bed.  At first a panic settled over her. Someone was in here. In her home. In 'her' room.  Her hands fumbled quick and sloppy against her night stand lamp.  The light flicked on and her eyes flitted all over the room before landing on her broken bird.
"Milane." The word sounded like a summoning. A beckoning. A prayer.  The bird was flinching and twisting in his little makeshift nest. "No!" She thought he was dying. Tears were already spilling out of her eyes as she climbed across the bed, fingertips extended out to sooth the poor beast.  The low keening sound was like nothing she'd ever heard. A whale song of misery, with the rough, saw edge sound of her raven.  "Please.. no..." It was an entreat. Nothing short of begging the nebulous, faceless gods to leave this poor beast to her care. The sound began to change. No longer a resonating whale song, it became louder, more present, more.. human.  She blinked and reached out to touch his feathers. He was trembling, and when her fingers finally made contact she realized he was burning up, almost scalding to touch "What in the hell..." She climbed all the way over "Are you growing?" The words were barely out of her mouth before the sound became a full on human wail and Milane began to transform. while the body of the bird stretched and twisted, his beak sunk in and flattened out. The feathers seemed to retract, or skin seemed to grow over them.  Steph pulled her hands back and back pedaled across the bed.  Her eyes were wide with fear and awe, her back pressed tightly up against the headboard frozen there watching the scene unfold before her.
The shapeless changing thing kept morphing in front of her.  She heard audible pops and crackles as the wings fattened and then stretched. Bones twisting, and mending as the transformation continued. She had no idea about time. This could have been going on for hours, or seconds. She was lost to the beautiful horror of what was happening.  To stunned to even reach for the bat that she kept at her bed side.  Soon the sound went completely still. A pin drop would have sounded like an anvil crash in that room.  She finally pulled herself together enough  to move.
The movement on the bed started the bird-man, and his head snapped up, dark eyes focusing on her intently. Still wild from pain and disorientation. He saw her and his face immediately softened. "Stephanie." He said. His voice was full of heavy emotion. He gifted her with a sweet half cocked smile and said "I'm not really a bird. I'm a human ... with a condition" He had the good grace to look apologetic... then passed out face down on the bed."
Her hands were balled up against the top of her bare thighs. Breath still coming in gasps of fear. Hair wild, eyes wilder. As soon as he spoke and passed out, her whole physiology seemed to pause. The tension let out of her and she sagged. "Well isn't that fucking something."
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The room was dark when it seemed to fall into place for him. When he seemed to be able to grip that magical thing. That switch that would allow him to shift.  He had to. He couldn't expect Steph to forgive him, or to understand. He felt his body seize and twitch. He understood. He was dying. He was a sentimental fool, sure.  He followed Steph around for damn near a year in the hopes that this bizarre relationship might actually turn into something... but he wasn't so sentimental that he'd lay down and die just to avoid embarrassment.  Just do it.  Even in his hazed avian thoughts, he knew he had to pull himself together. To pull the right string and make it happen. He'd just have to hope that Steph would forgive him in the end.
He tensed his way through another shudder. He could feel his body starting to shut down. His bird form seemed so frail. He blocked it out. Focused on that thin string in his mind. The one seemingly made out of light and sound. The familiar sensations of being a human. He plucked it. Felt it resonate pleasantly through his entire body. Then he grabbed it full force and pulled. It hurt worse this time than ever before. It was never pleasant mind you, but the intensity of this ripped a primal scream down from the base of his soul.  He could feel the cracks and tears in his body being stitched back together. Could feel his body grow and stretch and twist as it attempted to find his other form. He faltered for a moment and felt it skip and revert, before tripping back again and pushing forward to his human self.
When it was over he was left clutching the bed sheets in his hands, panting short, harsh breaths as he willed himself to make eye contact with the woman who had saved him. The woman he'd silently been in love with for years.  The one who, he was now naked, and on her bed with.  He looked up finally. The sight of her made his heart want to stop all over again. She sat back against the headboard. Black tank top against her pale skin, made her almost seem to glow. Wild hair cascading down over her shoulders in a wicked torrent. He pretended not to notice that the only other clothing she had on was a pair of black cotton briefs. Her eyes, though terrified, were more blue than he'd ever seen them before. He gave her a dopey smile and said the only think he could muster, and then blackness took him again.

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The blackness was kind. It was forgiving and comforting. Somehow he knew that on the other side of that darkness, nightmares were waiting to claim him. He knew that no good would come of this.  A voice bid him to stay there. To keep safe in the dark and the silence, but a searing pain cut through that black void and pulled him foolishly back to the surface. He came to screaming. Burning up and cold at the same time. Pain he had never known before coursed it's way through his shoulder and down his side, and over to his chest.  His eyes couldn't seem to focus on anything.  He tried to move. To escape the pain, but he was held in place.  The pain finally  muted down to a barely standable throb, and he finally was able to hone his vision in. It was Phillip.  That little son of a bitch.  It came back to him now. Being pushed through the door. Jabbed in the neck.  How long had the bastard been waiting in his home. He looked around quickly for anything that could help. A way out. Help. He refused to look at that face. That pale golden haired demon that was standing over him looking pleased as punch.
Phillip twisted the handle of the knife that was still sticking out of his shoulder.  A new wave of agony drenched him, and he rioted against the restraints, rolling faintly, he looked down and saw wheels. A fucking wheelchair.  He must have planned this for god knows how long.  The pain erupted a new panic, a new need to escape.  He didn't know how long he could endure this. His eyes focused on the phone for a moment too long because he could hear the cherub voice of his attacker chime in "Don't worry love, we'll call your girlfriend, but we're going to have a little fun first." Frank Squeezed his eyes shut and heard a clink and a scrape as Phillip picked up something off of the table.
A new blaze of pain erupted through his body. Not the sharp distinct plunge of a knife, but a raw nasty unbearable pain to his left leg. He shook and rattled against the chair and looked down at the boy, who was vigorously scrubbing against his shin from knee to ankle with a heavy wire brush. The entire front of his leg was a bloody pulp. Phillip looked up at Frank with sweet emotion dancing in his eyes and a blood spray decorating his cheeks like freckles.  Eyes almost innocent and filled with glee.  "You're my first." he whispered softly. "And while I want to take my time with you. Make this right. I do have something to confess."  He scrubbed again, harder this time. Frank could feel the wires scraping against the bone, and he had to fight to keep conscious. He coughed and bit against the gag in his mouth, trying not to vomit. He could still hear Phillip talking. "This isn't going to be as romantic as it will be with Stephanie." The young man heaved a sigh of regret.  "I want to keep you alive you understand. I need you to see me take her apart.  Unwrap her like a gift. " He giggled then, and ran a finger over the raw nerves of the open wound, touching Frank's bare shin bone.  " I think you'll enjoy it more than you could imagine." Frank screamed against his gag again. But it was filled with rage this time. He shook and rattled his chair again with such force that it fell backwards. The wind was knocked out of him and new blossoms of pain erupted from his wounds.  Phillip stood up and climbed over him, indelicately pressing against his leg and shoulder. "You don't think I see you watching her the same way I do. Lust in those oafish eyes.  You want her the same way I do, and I'm going to make you watch." Another Giggle, and then Frank could see the quick fast silhouette of a monkey wrench before a sudden wave of unconsciousness took him again.

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His heart was singing. There was music in his blood. In all of the blood. Magick there. Thick and crimson and full of his darkest desires.  The big man had put up quite a fuss after the nice scrubbing. He didn't know that the skin would be so easy to scrub away. He flicked a few thick pulpy pieces from his sleeve onto the tarp underfoot. Mr. Frank had put up quite a fight even in the chair, and had tossed himself backward.  Oh how he pretended that he didn't want to see Stephanie laid out before them both. He pretended that he didn't want to see her pulled apart and opened in every way and put back together. Maybe it was jealousy that it wouldn't be him.  Who knows.  The psyche is a strange place.  He'd show him exactly what he wanted. What they both wanted.  They just didn't know that they did yet.
He licked his lips as he thought about it. He stood over Frank, a foot planted on either side of his shoulders. Heavy wrench still in his hands from knocking the big guy out. "We're going to need to prep a little more I think." He nodded to himself as if Frank were still conscious. As if they were cohorts for the moment. "I'm sure you've got everything I need sir." He lifted his fingers to his brow and tipped his imaginary at his victims bruised, nearly crushed face. "You go ahead and rest up, I'll need you in a few."

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Steph watched as Milane, her bird man, passed out face first with that ridiculous grin on his face.  She blinked a few more times before very quietly slipping from the bed. She tip toed around to the side and knelt, looking at his face. She knew this man. She ever so delicately reached up to push a handful of dark curls away from his features. "James." She had to catch her breath. "What in the living hell is... You're my goddamned bird?!"  Even in her outrage she kept her voice to a low whisper.  "I ought to throw you out of my own damned window." though her anger was real, her words lacked any conviction.  "I bet that was your twenty in the jar to you bastard." The last words were more laughter than whisper, and she realized that she was still stroking his cheek where she had pushed his curls back, she quickly withdrew her hand.  "Well I can't leave you like this I guess."  She sighed and stood up, realizing for the first time that he was stark naked.  She hurriedly dug out a pair of her super baggy PJ bottoms and as gracefully as one can, shimmied them onto the unconscious man.
"Whatever happened to just asking a lady out for coffee." she muttered as she wrestled him into a more comfortable and decent position on the bed. He still seemed to be suffering from a fever so she went to get some things from her medicine cabinet to see if she could help, when she returned Fat Spanky was waddling around on the blankets and curling up near James' knees. "Traitor." she said accusingly to the cat, who looked completely offended, and licked his paw in rebuke before laying his head down. She stole the moment to truly look at the man. He was beautiful really. Dark full corkscrew curls that women would kill for. Defined Jaw line, deep set dark eyes. She'd pulled the blankets up over his chest, but her eyes were drawn over and over again to the graceful lines  of his shoulders and collar bone.
"Well I suppose if I have to be vexed by some paranormal bird man monster, that he ought to be pretty." she laughed and gently laid the cool wet cloth over his brow. The man fidgeted and then in his sleep gave that same groggy half smile, that she knew could probably get him out of any argument.  She sighed softly and walked around the bed and clicked off the lamp and slipped under the covers.  She propped herself up on her elbow, watching him intently. Certain that sleep would never find her after what she saw. After knowing that there was a strange man in her bed. After... after all of this..  But sleep came drifting in unbidden, and claimed her for it's own.

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More feathered fun


Milane Continued.



Stephanie made her way to the apartment as fast, but as gently as possible.  The injured bird cradled in her sweater. Even though she could see the stone steps to her apartment, it felt as if they were miles away. The city had never felt as dangerous and as empty and hopeless to her as it did right this moment.  After what seemed like forever she pushed her way into the apartment building. She heaved a sigh and steadied herself up a flight of stairs and into the elevator, pushing buttons with her elbows trying not to unsettle the bird. Finally, Avalon! She could see the door to her apartment.  They were safe.
As she clicked the door closed behind her, even Spanky was silent while he watched her.  She set the camera down on the table with a unconcerned clatter and tiptoed her way down the hallway to the bedroom.  "Jesus. Shit. What am I going to do. I'm not a fucking vet." She squeezed her eyes shut, cutting off the tears that were spilling over at the corner of her eyes.
       "I'm going to try to help you." she whispered.  The big bird gave a muffled caw. He was a shadow of the magnificent beast she usually saw.  Wing at an odd angle. Feathers were a smeary mess from the dirty side walk and from the plummet over the side of the building.  Very slowly and with deft, gentle hands she began to look him over for injuries.One broken wing and one messed up leg. A few small cuts and missing feathers.  Stephanie took a deep breath and walked to the bathroom to get her first aid kit.

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"What the fuck was that." Was all that Phillip could think. Over and over again.  Phrase burning red hot in his mind.  He held a hand up to his cheek where that goddamned bird had slashed it with his talons.  He pulled the hand down and saw the crimson streak across his palm. He only wished he had stopped that stupid animal into pulp. His mind was a mess. A blaze of rage and dark anger as he ran down the stairs in the building.  He just had to get down there and find his camera before someone else did. His thoughts led back to Stephanie. Some how, she did this.  That bitch was going to get it. Sent her little attack bird after him will she... He'd fucking show her who she was messing with.
He slung open the door to the building and stomped his way out onto the city street. Oblivious to the cold now, he kept his head down looking for the rumpled mess of his camera, but it was nowhere to be seen.  His boots crunched on some thin broken glass, but the camera was nowhere to be found.  He balled up his fist and punched the side of a derelict old pay phone.
That's it. If she wants to play hard to get. He'd make her come to him. He'd find someway to make her
crawl on her knees and beg for him. He would... A light went off in his mind. All those blazed erratic thoughts became razor sharp and clear. He knew exactly what to do. Exactly how to bring her to her knees.  "I'll be seeing you in just a bit love."  Phillip hefted his knapsack over his shoulder again and turned to march back up to main street.
 "Oh Franky... It's gonna be a good night." he said to himself as he raised his hand to hail a cab.

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Frank was finishing up for the night. He couldn't quite get the whole ordeal with Raquel out of his mind.
He went over and over in his head how he could have said the right thing. Changed the outcome.  Frank had a bad habit about that. He was a bear of a man, but what a softie he was on the inside.
Lindsay was wiping down the tables in the cafe area while he put the racks away, and wiped down the counters in the back. "Alright get ya ass outta here and study for those exams you got coming up." He called through the double doors. He heard Lindsay laugh softly as she slipped into her coat.
"You're a doll Frank." She stood on her tiptoes and hugged him before jetting out the back door.
"You guys sure do know how to make a sucker outta me." He called as she closed the back door behind her. He watched through the back glass, making sure she got into her car and out onto the street before going back to finish up. He was having trouble fighting off a case of the willies all day. Cold chills, the heebie jeebies, whatever you want to call them. Frank had them full force.  He kept checking over his shoulder.  Looking twice in each room. Double checked the tills, even switched on the News Radio show he usually hated.  Nothing.  Still he couldn't seem to shake it.  He heaved a sigh and flicked the neon signs in the window off before cutting through the double doors to the back again. He reminded himself to call in and check on Steph as soon as he got home.  Maybe this case of the heebs was her doing. He smiled to himself at the thought of calling her up and blaming the woman for his strange mood. He flipped on the security lights in the back before locking the door and making his way out.
Frank clambered into his old hatchback clunker and slammed the door.  Windows only worked on one
side, and her paint had seen better days, but she hadn't let him down yet. "Home again, Lydia" he said and gave the dashboard a pat.  She coughed to life and slid out of the parking lot behind the bakery.
He pulled into the small parking deck of his apartment and unwedged his formidable frame out of the car.  "Until morning." He chucked and gave the door a loving slam before turning to head out. Suddenly thick and heavy, that unsettling sensation came over him again. That hot-cold flush on his skin was undeniably present.  He shook all over and reached in his pocket for his keys and making a hurried rush for the front of the apartment building. He was opening both security doors when a low familiar voice greeted him.  Soft, and almost gentle.
"Evening Frankie boy." Phillip said.  The young man was right behind him.  How could he have gotten so close and been so quiet. Frank barely had time to jump, and no time to speak before Phillip pushed him the rest of the way through the doors.  Frank felt a Sharp burning pain in the side of his neck. He heard a wicked creepy laugh coming from Phillip and then the whole world went black.

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Stephanie had fixed Milane up as best she could. His wing was set right and wrapped in some gauze to
hold it in place.  She had tried to stint the messed up leg but the bird had fought it, pulling it away weakly with his beak.  After that she'd treated all the scrapes and pulled a piece of glass from the skin of his chest.
Now he was cuddled up in the blankets on the middle of her bed, body rocked with shivers every minute or so. Pain dulling his usually vivid eyes. She watched from across the room. Back pressed against the door frame, eyes straining in the dark to make out his lines. Why did it bother her so badly. She was an animal lover sure. The bird and she had been 'friends' for all intents and purposes.. but the melancholy she felt at his injury... the absolute heartbreak, seemed far too intense.
Some creeping cousin to deja-vu began to slink it's way up the base of her spine and she shook her head. She wiped her hands across the thigh of her jeans, and pushed away from the door jam. "sleep easy." She made her way back down the hall, eyes moving to the broken lump of a camera on the counter, which Spanky was readily investigating his own self.  That uneasy sensation from her spine turned into a cold brick as she looked at the thing. The lens was broken, but it was huge. Either someone was taking some
epic cityscape photos, or they were one hell of a stalker.  She turned it over in her hands, trying to see if she could salvage anything. Someone would be looking for this certainly. After a few moments and no success at getting the screen to come on, or to pop the mangled lens from the front, she found the tiny compartment where the Memory card was.  She gave a yelp of joy and patted Spanky's head, who of course
was helping.  "It's sad that this makes me feel all Nancy Drewish." She dropped the Memory stick on the desk next to the computer. "We'll have to find out if we have an adapter for this card."
Steph made her way across the kitchen, eyes barely able to keep open after her bizarre night. She reached for a mug and the coffee cairn simultaneously and paused. "No. Sleep. Give in."  Then she looked over at the cat and did her best zombie impression. She heaved a sigh and pulled the curtains closed and switched the television off before going down the hall again. She'd almost forgotten about Milane in his linen
nest on the bed.  Her hand flicked the light switch, which got her a soft guffaw from a pile of silky black feathers on the bed and she instantly slapped the switch off again. "Sorry sweetheart." she kicked her shoes off and pulled her sweater over her head and tossed it in a pile on the floor. "I wasn't thinking." She wrinkled her nose as she tried to balance her sleepy brain with where she might move the bird, in the end she just
gently pulled the birds makeshift sick bed as far to one side as possible, where she might not kick him or roll over on him in the night.
She half danced, half fell out of her jeans and onto the bed. "Don't go getting the wrong impression." She winked at Milane as if he might be able to understand her. "I don't normally let just any ruffians into my bed." She climbed under her blankets and tossed her dark hair over her pillow. Somewhere in the half light of the room there was a dark bird sound, that echoed faintly of laughter, and then she found
sweet oblivious sleep.

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After the fall, there was nothing but pain. Each breath was agony. He wasn't sure for a bright agonizing moment, who he was, or where he was, or what had happened. Then it all came flooding back. Attacking the man on the roof.  How it went wrong.  He'd rebuke himself for his wonderful escape plan, if he could pull any two coherent thoughts together.
He tried to pull himself together. Both his wing and his leg seemed to be twisted around the wrong way. Wings! He was still feathered at least. Not naked in the middle of the street, that's something. Wouldn't Stephanie laught to look out of her window and see a broken dying naked man near her stoop.  He heaved a breath that caught in his throat. Stephanie. His heart panicked. Where was she. He tried to move his head to peer in the direction of her apartment window, but couldn't manage more than to drop his head against the cold concrete. He willed himself as hard as he could to slip back to his other skin. Sometimes the change could heal him up. Mend broken bones, put himself right. The harder he tried, the farther away it seemed to be. The cold wind and the grit of the concrete. The dark city sky. They were all he could feel. That and the pain of his injuries. He tried again and the pain blacked out the world.
The sound of glass being ground underfoot brought Milane back to the waking world of pain and cold. Come to finish the job you bastard. He just wanted it over now. He wanted Stephanie safe, but what could he do here? A broken tiny feathered thing. Some protector he was. He cawed and tried to stand but fell over once more. Then he could see her. A shadow at first, but he could hear her. Soft voice laced with fear and sadness.  Then she leaned over him and he could see those bright blues full of tears. She was safe. She was here! Then the darkness took him again.  All that followed were brief peeks of the waking world between fade outs. He was being carried. Warmth. Soft hands. blackness.
Sounds of doors.  Flashes of pain. Stephanie's eyes. Strange room. His broken wing feeling like it was being ripped off. Oblivion.  After some nebulous amount of time a flash of light brought him around once more. He cawed in automatic protest and heard Stephanie apologize.  "I don't normally let just any ruffians into my bed." She said in the darkness, and he laughed. She was adorable, even now. Even after all of this. She'd saved him, and she was right. Even as it was, he was in her bed. A soft sense of quiet settled over him and he closed his eyes and sank into sleep.

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